[AMP-L] Book Writing
adams at door.net
Fri Jun 13 15:33:47 PDT 2008
Dick, for sure we have experiences nonamputees cannot fathom. If I had known how hard it was going to be, and all of the things in my life
that were to change post-amp, I really don't know if I could have gone through it. If I had the knowledge all at once that everything from
tying my shoes to getting on an airplane were to be forever complicated, I don't know if I could have dealt with it. If I instantly knew that
there would be very few moments now where total relaxation is possible rather than constantly evaluating terrain and preplanning such mundane tasks
as the best route into the 7-Eleven, I don't know if I could have dealt with it. I think it is by design that we learn these things gradually so that we
can adapt to them and deal with them one at a time. In that, I'm not sure that a book about every detail of being an amputee is a good thing for
the new amputee to read.
This explains, I guess, why I went through a fairly long period of being pissed off and ready to catch the next flight to fight George Paulson in his front
yard, and Wayne Renardson wherever I could have found him. I was that pissed off, I was checking flights. My anger was forced inside because everyone
around me expected so much of me...I felt. I thought they expected me to come out of ICU post-amp doing cartwheels and sidekicks. I did not want to
disappoint, so I pushed my anger back to where it came from and I dealt with it in the relative anonymity among those who didn't know me personally.
I dealt with it in my own way -- the wrong way, it's true, but in the end it got done. The bonus is that, thru luck and no good flights available, Wayne
was not forced to thump me and add even more to my anger. :-)
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